this is the end, my only friend

finally, chicago semester is coming to an end, and i am planning on this being my last post

I am actually quite excited to get back to Gr, but as of right now, there are no plans for doing anything in Gr,...no job, living at home, and no big vacation really planned, i guess i want to get back because thats what i know best and that is where my friends and family are. I keep talking with people from Aq and seems like I am missing out on so much, but I do not regret coming to chicago at all....

back in GR I am going to try to get involved with some community organizations and try something different than where ive worked in the past...the past 3-4 summers ive worked at gr popcorn and vereecke , simescu and associates CPAs...i think i am done with those jobs as well as the Westsider Cafe, because I need to move on with my life and distance myself from those people and get more opportunities in my life

Overall, in chicago I have learned more about myself, experience things that others never will, and what I think my lifes purpose is. I have so many plans and ideas that I can branch off of in a way that I think can help so many others. The experience has been invaluable and I will always treasure it, I cannot put into words what all the damn poetry readings, crammmed Red Line trips, waiting for buses in the cold, and the other things I thought i'd hate, mean to me. ..those are the things that i will never forget about my time here (o yeah, and my roomate Marcus) props to you for living with me and having a great time CHEERS....,also to matt, for keeping the faith when edwards dropped out, and to all of those other great people ive met here from those small towns in iowa and the midwest

but.. I stilll feel that i havent experenced the entire city, and I probably never will....but i could defenitly see myself living here someday , just as long as I have some friends to see evry once in a while and that my job's goal in coincidental with my lifes goal as well. There are some job openings currently that would allow for me to stay here this summer, but i'll take care of them and see where god sends me. I truly have learned that my life IS in his hands

what else....?...not sure, really...wish i coudl live here this summer because it is such a nicer plaace to live with such great weather, but i Do miss Gr and the rent free liviing is also nice,...have been getting back into tennis lately and absolutly miss playing it...going to a chicago fire game this saturday and hopefully a white sox game in the near future...if not, i can catch the sox when they come up to Comerica when me an Ken stop by for a game. I am sure I will take the AMtrak back down for the summer at some point or anoher, i really cant stay away from this place for tooo long. lolapolooza, taste of chicago, and a navy pier trip seem to be in the plan for this summer, the Trifecta that is Chi-town

It has been an interesting experience keeping this blog, as i do not even know the Webster defentition of what a blog is...but at times I've probbaly allowed you into my deeper thoguhts and feelings a little too much, but I have found that my writing style in inclined to doing that. I guesss next time blogging should be kept to experiences, and almost and advertsing style about it. sometimes, it feels like this is a diary and to me, a diary should be kept personal, so , pretty soon i think im going to delete this blog, as it has done the job that ive wanted it to....'a place to write down my experiences as i transition through a stage of my life living on my own in chicago that i can look back on in 15 years and realize where i was in life at that time'

until next time, may god bless you and guide you in the direction that he sees fit , if that plan happends to involve me, then all the better, and lets make the best of it..thank you one and all, good night

Steve

free writing

i have no motivation to write in this today, but find that my time between my morning class and going into work for the day, is a pretty lame time period so i feel obligated to fill you in a little bit

went to the cubs game yesterday with jon and my dad, great game, good time, but very cold, not cold necessarily but the wind was riduculous and made it worse, anyway, went to the hancock center and was impressed with the view

going home to GR next weekend, i find myself wanting to go back more, for a job interview in greenville, last interview i had went amazing, or so i thought, but i didnt get it. anyway, im realizing that the more i go back to Gr the more i missing out in chicago. i really could see myself iving here some day, especially in rogers park, where sutainability and community development is a top priority of the residence there. i think in order for me to like the city more, i just need some more time here because there is soooo many things to do an so much opporunity to get involved in anything and i mean anything you want.

hopefully i will get the greenville job but if not, i have been trying to get a job here in the sustainability industry being a finacnal analyst in a company. i cant find any pleasure when it comes to acounting work becauae it doens treally serve the communnity i live in, yes i can get involved witht he community outside of work, but i think my calling in life is to get involved and help others better themselves. maybe a career in politics is in the fold, and i have been debating that seriously lately, what better way to get people involved and help the place you live than being a piltical voice and voicing other peoples concerns. my regard for piliticiana has increased greatly lately.

if the greenville job doesnt work out, i might move to boston and try to work with marcus in a way at his car dealership, this probbaly isnt going to happen but it is a possibility. also, im trying to look into jobs in texas and/or arizona, awesome climate and tons of jobs are a huge draw for me.

i wish life were easy, but it isnt, im in such a transitional phase right now that i dont know exactly where i am headed. i am probaly one the most complex but simple persons you will ever know..possibly one of reasons why i really specialize what i get into, and relationships as well. it takes me a while to get close with people, but when i do i really chereish those friendships and try to be as loyal as possible

anyway, i have about 4 papers to write and 3 presentations to prepare for, so i have to get going and get ready for work. thanks for reading and talk to you soon

Steve

just realized this post is a scatterbrain post and my thoguhts are all over the place, hope that its readable but ill leave that up to you